Vague à L'âme (French for melancholy) is my Victorian depression, both inspired and worsened by my dear admiration, Emilie Autumn. For as long as I can remember I have suffered from Borderline Personality Disorder, which - like Bipolar Disorder - causes a dysregulation in emotions (my most often experienced emotion being a sort of paranoid depression).
Reading is a great way to lose yourself in someone else's world. I use this as a relaxation device and coping mechanism all the time because it not only helps me escape and is fun, but it helps me learn and explore the edges of the world without moving at all. Here are some great and popular books I have read and reviewed.
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One of my favorite books is The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls by Emilie Autmn because it is all about Emilie's Experience with the mental clinic and how she began to cope with the horrid experience of getting stuck there. She also talks about the Victorian-era methods used in asylums and how they just worsened girls. It is a very controversial book and should not be read by those who are easily influenced, because she goes into horrific detail about her screaming episodes and how cutting was for her. You can purchase the book online at http://www.asylumemporium.com/collections/books/products/asylum
Another favorite of mine is Girl, Interrupted by Susanna Kaysen. I was very pleased with this book because it talks about my particular disorder, Borderline Personality Disorder, and the author's real experience with it. She passionately explains the mental clinic she was tricked into inhabiting, the people that swore she would amount to nothing, and how her life is affected by it now. Also, it's not just a book!! It's a movie too!
Lock & Key by Sarah Dessen was the most amazing book I had ever read when I was in 8th grade. I don't remember it much anymore, just that the main character is an abused and very self~destructive teen girl. It had a huge impact on my life and made me realize how good I had it and how destructive I must seem to anyone peering in on my life. Sarah Dessen portrays the character extremely well and touches on some very valid points about people who are abused and how they then react differently to all things that happen to them; they are permanently damaged till they find the need and strength to seek help for themselves.
A great book for the socially awkward, Boy Proof by Cecil Castellucci develops a story about a high school girl that shaves her head, has orange eyebrows, and wears a white trench coat everywhere. She has a slightly obscure family life and hasn't even seemed to think about liking boys before because they don't seem to like her ~ hence the title "boy proof". "Egg", as she calls herself, is a very strong and abrupt person which is very admirable in my opinion. This is the perfect book for any girl that sees herself as an oddity in this world, because it teaches her to be resilient to others down-grading what she thinks is beautiful in this "popularity contest" world.
The last 3 books I read (Perfect, impulse, and burned) were by my new favorite writer, Ellen Hopkins. <3 I love the way everything she writes flows and stands like poetry. Every page of "impulse" was exciting and suspenseful and heart-wrenching. When I read "Perfect", I found myself staying up all hours just to read a little more. With "burned", I couldn't even put the book down! Each book is packed with teenagers holding in more secrets than the last. The topics range from Anorexia to provocative nature to suicidal thoughts -- all very controversial and popular among teenagers these days.
I just started reading the book "The Complete History of Why I Hate Her" by Jennifer Jacobson -- so far, so good. There are some very strange things happening that I can't relate to, and it's made it very exciting. ^_^